We're Done Here

When there are hellos, there are goodbyes. I think this is the time to close up this chapter and move on to better things. It's time to grow up and leave all these memories: the angst, the happiness, the anger, the fun... .  Time to start anew. Thanks for the memories.

-Cbkid

Pet Peeve #6

People liking their own comments on Facebook.

I just feel that it's a bit obnoxious and conceited... and sometimes awkward, especially if the only one who liked the comment is himself/herself.

Post-grad realization #?

I miss the thrill of looking forward to the first day of class or first day of semester. It's the time to have an excuse to do something new to either improve on what I did not do last time or just because it's the first day.

There is always the first day of the year... but should I expect one for the upcoming year? haha

Quote of the Day #18

"Believe those who are seeking the truth. Doubt those who find it." - Andrè Gide

I just want to say...

that this year, I got robbed the opportunity to -static- you, but things happen and  -static- No regrets though. I feel that we would not be -static- and you'd eventually -static-. I hope for the best for you, but I still don't support -static- You could  -static- or maybe it's just me being -static- things worked out -static-.

Quote of the Day #17

"The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence."

Quote of the Day #16

"It is not good to wake a sleeping lion." - Philip Sidney

Facts about me #2

I talk to myself loudly when I'm alone.

I imagine myself talking to my "other selfs". It is my way of sorting out my thoughts, debating it out with myself. It is also my way of entertaining myself when I'm bored and I have nobody to talk to.

I do this often, especially when I'm walking to and from school. I'm sure however some people already has seen me talk to myself, then saw me completely stop. Yes, I do get conscious about it. I hope whoever has seen me doing this don't think I'm crazy, but if they already do, it's whatever. I ain't stopping it just because other people think that.

Facts about me #1

I am a partial sore-loser.

I acknowledge those who deserve the win, but I get pissed off easily when I lose to those who I think are really cocky who talk smack when they win, a person who clearly got no skill and just got lucky, or there's an audience that coach a lot and think they know everything about the task at hand, or I am in a really bad losing streak.

When I'm in sore-loser mode, hell breaks lose. I go John McEnroe on things I see, or to people around me.

Signs that I'm going to be in sore-loser mode:
Unusual silence
Trash talking
Cursing
Furrowed eyebrows
In video games, when I start being violent towards the controller.

I think It's the Latter

Is it absence make the heart grow fonder or is it out of sight, out of mind?

Crushed

to know that my opinions don't matter or have little meaning to you.

I want to say something, but I don't want to say it half-assed. I must say it in a detailed, ordered manner so that I do not miss anything and avoid any many misunderstandings and miscommunication. Will I rant about it soon, or not? Probably not. by the time everything ends, it will be likely irrelevant. If I do it now, I won't have sufficient time to work on my rant...

This scowl says everything about this week.

I want to express my dislike for this situation, but it will just make things worse and awkward. I just got to bear with it for a bit longer, then it will be over. I just want to apologize that I can't live up to your expectations and my predecessors.

I'm not trying to be passive-aggressive nor expect something in return with this. I just need to vent somehow or I'll just blow up and create more trouble.

My New Best Friend

the cat litter box

I can't believe I'm saying this...

... but I feel that we bonded more than my current one and I actually miss that... actually, not just my current one, but of all my other ones. Too bad we ended up in different paths.

...

Did you just... what?!... but you said...

._.

-inner me facepalms-

Pet Peeve #5

People asking me if I am okay, when I am actually okay.

-Do I really look that miserable? I know that you ask because you care, but like anything, it will lose meaning the more it's said.

A little bit more...

and I probably will write things I shouldn't be writing. I know things could just get worse for me, but I can't take it anymore... or maybe I should bare with it for a little longer. I've dealt with it not so long ago, I survived. I'm sure I'll be fine... As long as I have someone to vent to, I could just live without blowing up...

By the way, you're stupid. you're really stupid... probably not stupid. that's such a harsh word. Probably naive. yeah... that's a good term for it.

I never thought your antics were cute. The others probably think so, but for me, it's annoying. Especially since I feel like it is fake.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANI!!!

I hope you ain't sick of the birthday greetings from me ^^;

Pet Peeve #4

False modesty.

Mornings are Always a Struggle

I remember waking up in my room this one summer day. My first sight of the morning was my clock. It read 5:45ish. I then closed my eyes, hating that I was awake that early, then I thought about it.

I should like getting up early because I could do more things this way. I had my own room, was alone in it, and I could pretty much do anything I want without disturbing anybody or without being disturbed by my parents.

There's nothing I dislike more than them knocking on my door, trying to wake me up. For me, it marks the end of my alone time to be private, calm, and meditative. I think this is the reason why I don't like letting people know I am awake. The last thing I want to happen as the first thing that happens to me in the day is to have a disorganized, anxious, chaotic mind.

Story of my College Exams

Fun?

Prof asks my biochem lab class: "What is something fun you can do with KCl (potassium chloride)?"

Student replies: "Stop people's hearts."

Prof replies: "You and I have different definitions of fun. You should come to my lab and see what we really do for 'fun'."

The more time we have to try to get to know each other, the more distant apart we become...

Going off of my previous post...

Sad but true lol

Quote of the Day #15

"I may hate you more, but that does not mean I will love you less."- Rosie from War Horse

I would really want to say everything I want to say in my head, but I just can't say it directly. I get all mixed up, confused, forgetful, tongue-tied and all just piles up and then I just totally mess up and just say everything wrong. I've always wanted to just write everything, but I always have a hard time starting it, like any other things I do in life. It's not that I'm shy or hesitant on saying what's on my mind; rather I have many things to tell and discuss that I don't know where to begin. I have had chances to talk with you face-to-face, one-on-one, but I just can't bring it up. I've thought of bringing notes with me on those times, but it just feels odd and lame for me to bring a note-card on a serious talk. You see, I think of myself as more of a writer, and not a speaker. Whenever I write things, I write them using my heart and my mind. Every detail from the word use and from the structure has meaning for me. It's probably why it's very hard for me to write because I want it to be carefully crafted to convey whatever I really feel.

Is it bad...

... for me to want the world to end this year? I just don't want to deal with the future especially since I have no idea what I would do or what would become of me. In case the world does end, I do have some things I want to do before it all ends. I just hope I could do it. Would that be considered a bucket list then?